April 2013
7 posts
That's a Wrap !
In June of 2010 when I graduated from the American Musical and Dramatic Academy if someone had said to me that in January of 2012 I would meet the right people who would change my life forever and if someone had told me I would be writing and co-producing an album for myself….I would’ve shook my head and told you ” no, no… I’m a theater girl. I could never do that,...
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March 2013
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"Beauty provokes Harassment" -- and I'm tired of...
So I’ve come to notice that I’m starting to cause a lil controversy with some pictures I choose to post via Instagram/FB of myself… Here is my response, if you don’t like it don’t follow me, I would just like to say that I work hard in my life. Really fucking hard at everything I do, and that includes my body. And I’m proud of it. So that’s it. I will post...
February 2013
5 posts
24 years of music, here's to 24 more...
In 2 days I’ll be turning the big 2-4. SO weird…I’m trying not to trip myself into thinking negatively about the age. So tonight I am going to celebrate with friends, well try to anyway, Cause ya know…Rihanna is 24 and has like 7 Grammy awards…
I know it’s so bad to compare yourself…I try not to because I am different from anyone else…so I...
"This is a man's world, but it wouldn't be...
Every time I say to myself “I’ve hit rock bottom…” it actually wasnt rock bottom, until this time.
In a matter of 7 days…I’ve managed to FINALLY speak out against some of the most hateful people in my life, who happen to be blood related unfortunately and I have let go of 10 years of built up anger and sadness and thoughts (through an email mind you, because...
January 2013
3 posts
Scared of Lonely...
I over look my city as I take the 194 bus back into manhattan and I can’t help but wonder how is it that I live in a city of millions and feel so alone 76% of the time, how am I alone? How am I still single after 2 years? And why am I settling for petty bullshit when I promised myself I wouldn’t and when I write music that says I don’t…
I mean, for over a year I...
New Year, New Me...Same Goals, Same Dreams.
One of the most amazing things that happened for me this year was meeting these 2 people.
Who continue to support me, stand up for me, believe in me, DEAL with me ;) and accept me and my music. They are teaching me so much and it is trying my patience which I desperately need. They challenge me, and everyday is a blessing knowing they are a part of my life and a part of this journey. I signed...
December 2012
8 posts
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November 2012
4 posts
High On Heels: Realness: Why are we STILL single? →
I mean she said it PERFECTLY, so glad I dont even have to write about this topc I’ll just repost my darling friend Ebony’s blog since she’s got it covered…plus she quotes me in it anyway ;)
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The other night I’d made plans to meet up with some friends from my previous DCL contract for drinks. Outfit was on, hair was did, face painted, and lastly the boots...
"Get closer to me, if you dare...I double dare..."
It’s only appropriate that there is ALL this new music coming at me from every direction… it started with Beyonce’s 4, and now this month Christina’s Lotus, Rihanna’s Unapologetic, Ne-yo’s RED…its all pointing me in this continuous direction I’ve been on. and it’s this amazing sign that I’m on the right path…It is so close, I can...
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Hey LA, I'm comin' your way !
Something about getting on that flight to LAX…It just makes your dreams seem that much more attainable.
I got X-Tina on repeat reminding me just how much I am on the right track
In my life and with all I am doing and accomplishing. Everything happens in time…when you put the work in good things will happen. Challenge yourselves, push limits in every aspect of your life. Never stop...
"I'm singin' till I'm winnin', Ima sing all...
‘I’m singin’ till I’m winnin’, Ima sing all night.”
“I stand and believe in who I am, take shots at my heart but who am I to give up…reminding me to see my only chosen destiny, and now I’m ready now I’m gunna sing it all out.”
It never ceases to amaze me how SPOT ON my intuition is. Every time my gut tells me something, it happens or it did happen. I am...
September 2012
5 posts
Mainstream is NOT an option...Is it for you?
Last night was one of those nights where you don’t sleep. Nostalgia just doesn’t let you rest, it claims your mind for a certain amount of time and you replay scenes in your life that stand out whether they were good or bad … pondering on how it just so happened that almost everyone who made an impact on your life left abruptly for no reasons at all other than fear of loving and jealousy. It’s...
late night mind games.
It’s interesting, now that I finally am ready to dive in to this whole dating game (after being hidden in a cave for the past year and 7 months) I am finding that most men are little freakin’ PANSIES. I realize that I’m intimidating (ok I’m REALLY intimidating) but COME ON, grow a pair!
Although, it is funny because I seriously have no barrier anymore, I am blunt, I am...
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"The Greater the Difficulty, the Greater the...
As August comes to an end I find myself ready to move forward. This summer, looking back went by fast (which always happens) but day by day, the past 3 months, I found myself drowning in the hours, waiting and wishing for it to end and waiting for the leaves on the trees to turn color and fall.
Sometimes I have to remind myself not to wish away the time and know that being stuck is...
August 2012
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"There is no better Gambling, than not to Gamble"...
For the past year and a half I have been shut off to the world. Any one that tried to enter my life who hadnt been in it the year prior I kept at a distance…I didn’t want to meet any one, know anyone new. I wanted to be unknown to the world. I had faced two deaths…one in a lover and one in a soul mate, a best friend of 6 years. ( and PS: I don’t literally mean they died, just the...
July 2012
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June 2012
4 posts
Moving on & Moving out...
I cant believe the time has flown by like this. it feels like it was just yesterday that I was moving in to this little studio with dreams and ambitions ahead of me. The hustle and bustle on Amsterdam Avenue never stopped no matter what time of day it was, and I remember it took me a few weeks to get used to non-stop noise & sirens outside all 4 windows of mine, But now I find when its...
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May 2012
4 posts
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All about the #music
lately, its been rough. on top of having family issues that i’m going to be facing soon (and have been facing), and battling with my own sanity its been really hard on me.
I honestly was ready to give up everything after my year and a half relationship ended with two producers who promised me the world and back this past november (of 2011)
lesson number 1: NEVER believe in a promise made by...
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April 2012
2 posts
Unsigned Artist Competition
I love when un-professional wanna-be labels who start unsigned artist competitions “don’t wanna deal with me” because “Im a bitch.” Im a bitch when people LIE and USE me. lets RECAP…I came in 3RD place in a competition last april (they CHOSE 3 winners, one of them being myself) with a prize of studio time to complete 2 songs written by me…and they decided...
Cowards.
Can I just say, I love when people, especially men, mock the fact that I’m jaded and laugh at me.
IF you had to go through HALF of what I have gone through in my life you would have not survived. Divorce,Disease, Jealousy, Spite, Hatred,Isolation,Discrimination….until you have walked in someone else’s shoes, especially mine don’t you DARE judge me. I can be jaded if I...
March 2012
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ex's
l love when youre drug addict/alcoholic ex best friend of 6 years friends your ex on facebook. — that’s priceless.
#RISEABOVE.
#SARAHMADISON album coming out JAN/FEB 2013. they better be ready for some hard-core music inspired from their spiteful behavior. #HOLLA.
February 2012
4 posts
"...You're my Sunshine"
Sometimes in life when you think you’ve hit rock bottom you need a pick me up, you need to do something for yourself to remind you everything is going to be ok, and life is still moving on around you even though you think yours has tragically stopped. When people have let you down so many times in a matter of 72 hours that your abs hurt from crying so hard and your head hurts from thinking...
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